Admissions.

For the longest time I have considered blogging.  Always writing a post here and there then pushing it aside like a pile of Brussels sprouts. I just assume that no one wanted to read what I had to write, but I have come to the conclusion that I don't blog for you, but instead for me.  

It is therapeutic for me.    Now, on to the meat of the post, if you will.  

My weight.  When I began my journey I weighed in at 274 pounds.  You read that right nearly 300 pounds.  I knew I needed a change. And change I did.  I began logging my food via myfitnesspal, and lightly exercising.  This served me well.  I got down to my lowest weight EVER: 198 pounds.  Then... I don't really know what happened other than I gave in.  We went to Disney World for a week.  Then it was Halloween.  We all know that is followed by thanksgiving, and finally Christmas.  I ate, and ate.  It got cold, and I stopped working out.  It was a total recipe for disaster.  I didn't completely give in per se.  I attempted to lose weight between each of these events.  I tried pills.  Drinking shakes. There was even an ugly month where I began binging and purging. Luckily for me, I saw the destruction there.  Plus I hate vomit.  All of this stressed me out, and unfortunately I am a stress eater.  My behavior was destructive, that stressed me out, so I ate more.  Smart huh? I haven't gone down that road for well over a month, and I have no desire to head back there.  Thank god for redemption. O

I have realized that food is not the problem.  I am.  No food is evil.  I can eat whatever types of food I want so long as I maintain a healthy calorie balance.  Here is my plan.  I plan to log my food again on myfitnesspal. Good bad and ugly.   Hold me accountable there.  I plan to log exercise 5 days a week.  Hold me accountable.  My goal for the year is to log 600 miles on my treadmill or running outside by December 31, 2014. Hold me accountable.  I will be weighing in once a week.  Hold me accountable. 

I am also going to do my best to check in here often, to help process things and write about whatever it is that comes to mind.  

Allons-y!