It's hard to sign on myfitnesspal everyday and see everyone else losing weight. Part of me wants to run and jump on my scale to see what's going on. Then I want to knock out a few more calories to see it happen FASTER. But then I remind myself that doing things that way gave me an eating disorder. Eating in secret. Puking after every meal. Binging nearly every day. I don't want that anymore. In my mind I remember what the scale, what the numbers do to me. And everyday I struggle with that.
What I can do is continue to lift heavy things and run. I have to focus on those to keep sane.
I know it's working. Just today my inlaws commented on how good I looked. Things are changing, and not just my body you know?
I hate admitting these things to the blog world, yet at the same time it is sort of freeing.
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